I have been thinking of how to pen this for awhile now, and even after alot of thinking and about 12 re-writes, I still don't know if I got it right. Now that I am no longer in the military, for the first time in my life I get to reflect on a few things that I am certain have struck any number of other warriors when they find themselves in this place.
This place being, on the outside looking in....
I was cruising through the cable channels not long ago and happened upon Kill Bill Vol. 2. and the the following interaction took place:
Budd: They say the number one killer of old people is retirement. People got 'em a job to do, they tend to live a little longer so they can do it. I've always figured warriors and their enemies share the same relationship. So, now you ain't gonna hafta face your enemy on the battlefield no more, which "R" are you filled with: Relief or Regret?
Elle Driver: A little bit of both.
Budd: Bullshit. I'm sure you do feel a little bit of both. But I know damn well you feel one more than you feel the other. The question was, which one?
Elle Driver: Regret.
And I thought about what my answer would be....